Author Archives: Sharon Blackie

About Sharon Blackie

Crofter, writer, publisher at Two Ravens Press and editor of EarthLines Magazine.

The Retreat and the Return: the Eco-Hero’s Journey

What happens to the hero’s journey in an age of ecological crisis? What relevance has it now? How do we need to revision it?

I’ve written a few times about the Hero’s Journey on this site, primarily in the context of whether the nature of the journey differs for men and women. I’ve suggested that the classic monomythic Joseph Campbell Hero’s Journey in some respects fails to reflect the journeys taken by women (more outward-looking than inward-looking, just as one example). I’ve also suggested that Campbell’s framework for the Hero’s Journey is inevitably associated with the values, conventions and perspectives of the sources from which it draws – and also, the values, conventions and perspectives which predominated at the time and in the place he was writing. And so the concept of ‘hero’ and of heroic action fitted perfectly with the dominant (American) western culture of the day. But times have changed, and there is a strong argument that this traditional concept of the hero, and the heroic trajectory of western civilisation, is at the root of much that is wrong with the world. It reflects values that are patriarchal, conquering, martial. Archetypal psychologist James Hillman attacked the concept of the hero throughout his work, stating that it is egocentric, narcissistic, self-referential. ‘Because the movement of classic heroism is forward and upward,’ he argued, ‘the most difficult of all tasks for heroic consciousness is looking inward.’

And much, as ever, lies in the name: the word ‘hero’ derives from the Greek hḗrōs, demi-god: a ‘man of superhuman strength or physical courage’. But we are not struggling with ways to become superhuman. What we are struggling with are the ways in which we can become more fully human in a deeply connected more-than-human world. The Journey then moves beyond mere psychology, and becomes ecopsychology. And so what we are looking for in this age of ecological crisis is a post-heroic, post-patriarchal vision of the Hero’s Journey – one that in some ways moves us closer to the Heroine’s Journey as envisioned by Maureen Murdock and others, and yet transcends and extends that too.

As ever, we’re really not starting from scratch. Long before Campbell dreamed up his monomyth, there were other forms of archetypal journey. Perhaps the best-known of all is that contained within the archetypal imagery of the tarot. I’m referring to the tarot here not as a new-age fortune-telling tool, but as an old and rich repository for archetypal imagery. To me, the Journey contained within the tarot is both deeper than Campbell’s, and more focused on inner development. This Journey is represented by the major arcana of the tarot, beginning with the Fool, as a sequence: rather than a ‘hero’s journey’, it is (arguably more wisely) known as the Fool’s Journey: the incarnate soul making its way through life.

In simplified brevity: the Fool’s Journey begins with the Fool as the representation of innocence. He or she (for simplicity, let’s stick to ‘he’) sets off and encounters (through the Magician and High Priestess) the two poles of existence – masculine and feminine, light and dark, action and stillness, conscious and unconscious. He embraces the mother (the Empress) and the father (the Emperor). He begins his formal education in the traditions of his time (the Hierophant); he embraces the urge for sexual union (the Lovers); he achieves control and mastery and rides victoriously through the world (the Chariot); he begins to learn the Strength that comes from taming his inner passions … And yet sooner or later, the Fool begins to question this outward life and begins to search for answers, turning inwards (the Hermit), glimpsing the great patterns and connectedness of the world (the Wheel of Fortune). He looks back over his life and comes to a decision (Justice): he must learn to let go, and enter the Underworld (the Hanged Man). He puts his old life behind him, and a process of rebirth begins (Death). Emerging from the Underworld is a balancing act (Temperance) between the old material world (the Devil) and the new. The Fool finds release in crisis – a sudden change or upheaval (the Tower) which leads to revelation and to hope and inspiration (the Star). The Moon stimulates his creative imagination, but he needs the Sun to keep it in healthy balance. And so the Fool is reborn, and makes a deeper Judgement about the purpose of his life. With that, he returns to the World, having integrated the disparate parts of himself so that he is able to bring something valuable and necessary back into it.

But whether you prefer to think of it as part of the Hero’s Journey or the Fool’s Journey, for those of us who live in these troubling times, awareness of the damage that our civilisation is inflicting on the planet can precipitate the crisis that ultimately leads to a descent to the Underworld. And that descent, for the ‘eco-hero’, is usually characterised by rage and despair. Rage at those who continue to destroy the planet; despair at our apparent powerlessness to do anything about it.

There are many different interpretations of the tarot and the Fool’s journey; since we are talking here about how we translate that journey for our times – times that are defined by a crisis that goes beyond the material and environmental to the spiritual and cultural – I can wholeheartedly recommend to you the tarot of Hermann Haindl. Haindl’s tarot deals specifically with ecological themes, with the problems of a civilisation undergoing a crisis which is derived from a masculine-dominated mentality, one based on hierarchies and dominance, rather than cooperation and respect. He draws on a variety of spiritual traditions to explore all the ways in which we can reconnect ourselves to the natural world. The central theme of the Haindl tarot is the renewal of the Earth – not just the material Earth, but the spiritual Earth. During a recent brief descent to my own Underworld (because the Fool’s Journey, unlike the Hero’s Journey, is not only cyclical but fractal) I found myself face to face with Haindl’s version of the card ‘Mourning’: the three of swords. Rachel Pollack (a necessary guide to Haindl’s tarot) writes this about the card: ‘For Hermann Haindl the deepest mourning comes for the world’s suffering … The card shows us the need to confront such experiences and come to terms with them … When faced with an impossible situation there is no shame in pulling back. Retreat may be a necessity … We need to experience mourning. Then the natural cycle will turn again to strength and joy.’

When faced with an impossible situation there is no shame in pulling back. Retreat may be a necessity. But note that there is a difference between a retreat and a rout. A retreat is an organised withdrawal of forces, so that their strength can be preserved while regrouping takes place, and so that they can be used another day. A rout is a running away, a scattering, an every-man-for-himself flight, without any direction or purpose to it other than simply to flee the enemy.

So let’s say that rather than a rout, we’ve managed a retreat. A retreat, a withdrawal, a descent to the Underworld, an entry into the cocoon … call it what you will; it serves the same purpose, and it has a long history in many spiritual traditions around the world. We’ve gathered ourselves up and entered that dark place where we’ve taken the time to lick our wounds, raged at the world and our role in its demise, despaired at our perceived powerlessness to make a difference. All of this is a necessary and important part of the Journey. But we cannot stay in retreat forever. A key part of the Journey is the Return. If you do not make the Return, then you have not made the Journey.

You can’t return if you’re still stuck in the Underground world of rage and despair. As long as we remain in a constant state of rage and despair, we’re still in the Underworld. The descent to the Underworld is just one stage on the journey, and we must move on. For the eco-hero, getting stuck in the Underworld – being unable to find a way out of the rage and despair, or clinging to it because it’s curiously comfortable, or Romantic – is perhaps the greatest trap of all. It’s all too easy to stay in the Underworld; it feels like protection. You can get comfortable with retreat. There are people who make a career of it. It’s a stuck place to be. The trick is to move on. Only then can we gain wisdom enough to have something that’s worth saying, something to teach others. Otherwise, by continuing to foist our rage and despair on the world we become like the Pied Piper, luring away the children who are the future of the community and of the planet.

So in the post-heroic Fool’s Journey, the Return requires giving up the rage and despair. No, I don’t mean not ever feeling the grief again, or the guilt; I don’t mind never feeling anger. I mean developing the ability to let it go. Rage, despair, guilt, grief – they’re all inward-looking. They’re all about us. But the Return in the post-heroic Fool’s Journey involves moving beyond ourselves and taking our place in the community of people and plants and animals and non-human others who constitute life on this planet. It involves becoming one of those people who go on. ‘… In the silence you don’t know, you must go on, I can’t go on, I’ll go on’, writes Samuel Beckett, in The Unnameable. And this is the wisdom of those who take the Journey – or let it take them – and something which only those who have moved out of the Underworld can know. You must go on, and in going on, you must also learn to serve. But our ability to successfully serve also involves the recognition that we cannot individually save the world. We need to face that too. And if it’s heroism you’re after, that is arguably the truest heroism of all: to go on anyway, in full knowledge of the fact that whatever we do, we may not be able to save the planet from ourselves.

There’s an interesting mental place which follows rage and despair if you follow the Journey through the Return. It’s focus. Clarity. A sense of grounded being. We need all of these things because the crisis of our civilisation isn’t just an ecological crisis, a material crisis: it’s a spiritual crisis, a cultural crisis. To change it we have to change hearts and minds. But we can’t change hearts and minds by locking ourselves up in rage and despair. We can only change hearts and minds by coming out of retreat, by embracing the Return with all its challenges – because the Return was never intended to be a happy-ever-after ending to the story. I repeat: the Fool’s Journey is cyclical, fractal. We get to go through it all again, at every stage of our lives, in order that we can continue to transform not only ourselves, but the world around us. In order to fully engage with our own little bit of that world, wherever and whatever it might be. Passionately, with all our skills. Small. Local. Here. Now. We have to step out of our own heads and into our bodies-in-the-world. Be present. Show up. Participate – not in action for the sake of action, or other displacement activities that represent a false Return. We need to dig in. To forge community. To spread … not hope in opposition to rage and despair, but light. A refusal to stay in the dark. This isn’t about being foolishly optimistic, irritatingly upbeat. It’s about being realistic – because when we return from the Underworld we don’t forget that dark knowledge – we retain it. But it’s knowledge that we’ve also learned to transform. We’ve done the alchemy. We’ve grown. And the trick in the Return is to find the way to manifest our growth: to manifest our vision of possibility out here in the real world.

At some level, it really is as simple as that.

May

What potent blood hath modest May.
-  Ralph Waldo Emerson

May’s story, like its weather, has been unsettled, dislocated. But amidst the trying times, many things on the croft thrive.

In spite of our worst fears, our honeybees are alive. The wildflowers on the headland were so late this year; David brought in branches of gorse from other parts of the island to help them out. Now the lesser celandine is out, and the marsh marigolds; the thrift is almost there, and some of last year’s kale, kept over for the purpose, is finally flowering …

Saving the beesThe three little pigs which remain (to be shared between ourselves and a neighbour) are having a lovely time; here they are eating overgrown rocket, cabbage leaves and turnip tops from the polytunnel:

3 little pigsThis year’s lambs are growing well and playfully:

Lambs 2013A rare Moss Carder bumblebee took up residence for a while on the rosemary in the polytunnel:

Moss carder bumblebeeThere are lapwing nesting on the headland; there are oystercatchers and snipe everywhere. And beautiful dunlin in breeding plumage down by the loch:

DunlinBrighid the cow seems to have recovered, but still will not be able to mate and so sadly we will not be able to keep her after the end of summer. This beautiful Shetland lady who lives on the east side of the island is about to have a calf; if she calves successfully they will be coming to live with us in a few weeks’ time, and she will become our new milk cow. And a friend for Brighid, for the time that we have left with her:

KONICA MINOLTA DIGITAL CAMERAThe sad news is that my lovely old golden retriever Frodo slowly faded and died. He is buried on the croft, down by the lochside where he used to love swimming, and in a place where we can walk past his grave every day and say hello. He was a dog who knew all the names of sticks and stones. Once upon a time he stole a mackerel which David had just caught, and swallowed it whole. His favourite movie was ‘the Lord of the Rings’ – especially the scene in which they cry ‘For Frodo!’ He was a good friend to me for ten years, and a big furry uncle to the puppies.

FrodoAfter we had buried him on Sunday morning, we all went to a local beach and mourned for a while:

Beach, MangerstaMay has brought its vicissitudes; along with them have come opportunities. Opportunities to end old stories and forge new ones. Opportunities for stillness; opportunities for growth, and for moving on.

Regret

This beautiful short essay by David Whyte, originally published in The Oberver (http://www.davidwhyte.com/pdf%20files/Observer_Regret.pdf) and recently shared by him in full on Facebook, seemed worthy of additional sharing here.

Regret is a short, evocative and achingly beautiful word; an elegy to lost possibilities even in its brief annunciation. It is also a rarity and almost never heard except where the speaker insists that they have none, that they are brave and forward-looking and could not possibly imagine their life in any other way than the way it is. To admit regret is to understand that we are fallible, that there are powers beyond us; to admit regret is to lose control not only of a difficult past but of the very story we tell about our present; to admit sincere and abiding regret is one of our greatest but unspoken contemporary sins.

The rarity of honest regret may be due to our contemporary emphasis on the youthful perspective; it may be that a true, useful regret is not a possibility or a province of youth, that it takes maturity to experience the depths of the emotion in ways that do not overwhelm and debilitate us but put us into a proper relationship with the future. Except for brief senses of having hurt another, having taken what is not ours, youth is not yet ready for the rich current of abiding regret that runs through and can even embolden a mature human life.

Sincere regret may be a faculty for paying attention to the future, for sensing a new tide where we missed a previous one, for experiencing timelessness with a grandchild where we neglected a boy of our own. To regret fully is to appreciate how high the stakes are in even the average human life; fully experienced, it turns our eyes, attentive and alert to a future possibly lived better than our past.

“Regret” by David Whyte, 2010.

Our first Outer Hebrides writing retreats

HeadlandFurther to my recent post about our plans to offer writers’ retreats here in the wild and beautiful Western Isles, we now have some courses and some dates to offer.

From September 28 – October 5 this year we’ll be running a ‘Re-enchanting the Earth’ retreat for both men and women. (We’ll also be running this retreat in autumn 2014, very likely the week of September 20.) http://reenchantingtheearth.com/courses/residential-courses/re-enchanting-the-earth-retreat/ Prices start from £425 full board for 6 nights.

From May 4 – 10 2014, we’ll be running a ‘Singing Over the Bones’ retreat for women only. http://reenchantingtheearth.com/courses/residential-courses/singing-over-the-bones/ Prices also start from £425 full board for 6 nights.

The themes of each course will be similar, in that we will be focusing on deepening our relationship with the land and our connection to the natural world, and exploring the ways in which we can communicate it. We’ll be talking about authentic ways of living and being in the midst of a world in crisis. We have a unique opportunity here in the ‘working wilderness’ of our crofting village of Breanish to explore these issues. Nestled at the foot of Mealasbhal, Lewis’ highest mountain, we are sandwiched between sea and hills and look out to St Kilda, the Flannan Isles, Scarp and the Monachs. The landscape is rugged but intensely beautiful in all weathers. No guarantees of good weather can be given in the Outer Hebrides at any time of year, but standing by the sea in the face of a south-westerly gale and letting the air hold you up, then returning to a warm fire with your face encrusted with sea salt, is an experience not to be missed! Working the land as we do, David and I know the ecology and history of the place very well, and will share that knowledge as generously as we’re able. Side trips to the croft are also encouraged.

Stags at Traigh Uig

Stags at Traigh Uig

It may seem as if travelling to the Outer Hebrides is impossibly long and slow, or impractically expensive: it doesn’t have to be so. Do have a look at this page for more information about the place, accommodation and travel.

Places on both courses are limited so if you’re interested please do contact me as soon as possible: sharon[at]reenchantingtheearth[dot]com.

On transformation

I’m not usually in the habit of writing deeply personal blog posts, unless (as with my last one, ‘When Things Fall Apart‘) I think they deal with a more universal kind of issue that I believe may resonate with other people. I worry often that it’s self-indulgent – or just plain boring! But this has been such a challenging couple of weeks that I hope you’ll forgive me for doing it twice in a row, simply because it addresses the issues that are at the heart of this website and of my work. And so this post springs from the fact that for all of this week and some of last, while we’ve been nursing a dying old dog and a cow with a tear in her insides as well as getting on with the business of putting together the August issue of EarthLines Magazine, I’ve been receiving hate mail, and so has David. Quite a lot of it, from two people, in the form of comments on blogs and websites which I manage (and for all of which comments are moderated, so that this kind of malicious nonsense isn’t inflicted on readers). It’s not the fact of hate mail itself which makes me want to write this post – there are a lot of unpleasant, troubled and spiteful people out there who believe that this is a reasonable way to spend their time – it’s the content of the hate mail, and its subject matter which we find surprising.

You see, these people are sending me hate mail because once upon a time in the long story of my life, I worked for a tobacco company. This fact, they assure me, invalidates anything good that I might have done before or since that period of time, makes me a fraud, a bad person, and someone who shouldn’t be able to live with herself. ‘All is not what it seems!’ they proudly announce, and threaten to ‘spread the news’ wherever they can.

I hope that what people who are reading this blog will find surprising isn’t the fact that I once worked as a scientist for a tobacco company (initially employed to manage their external medical research grants programme, and then to manage a research centre dedicated to trying to produce a safer cigarette, if you happen to give a damn). I hope you won’t find that suprising, because it’s certainly no secret, though it’s long enough ago that I don’t even think about it these days. I certainly don’t much talk about it, any more than I talk about the years I spent as a high-flying young neuroscientist in the Hopital Pitie-Salpetriere in Paris and the Institute of Neurology in London – because those days have little direct relevance to the work I am doing now and have done for the past many years. (Though more of that in a moment, because it’s not strictly true – which is the main point of this post, and which I’m coming to!) My friends are of course aware of it – to the extent that it ever comes up in conversation – and back around 2007 or 2008 it was the subject of discussion in a big published interview I did with Colin Waters of the Scottish Review of Books (a supplement to the Glasgow Herald newspaper) shortly after David and I set up Two Ravens Press (it doesn’t seem any longer to be on their website since they revised it recently and dumped a lot of archived material, otherwise I’d link to it). Big secret? No. Whatever.

What I hope you’ll be suprised about isn’t that fact. I hope, though, that you’ll be surprised about the assumption inherent in the content of this ongoing hate mail that there is no journey through life, no learning, no progress, no possibility for real transformation. And that is why I’m talking about this now. Because that belief in transformation, in change, in moving on, is at the very heart of this website, and it’s at the very heart of the work that I do now and have done for many years. At the risk of sounding trite, life is a journey. A hero’s journey, if you like, or a heroine’s journey if you prefer. Few of us travel roads that progress in a straight line – that’s what creates both the pain and the beauty of our human lives. We follow a path; it divides. We choose to head off down a particular turning based on the perceived necessities of our lives at that time – and those necessities are often based on patterns that no-one else can entirely understand, or should presume to judge. It turns out to be a wrong turning, and sometimes we only recognise this when we’re deeply down the path. When we recognise it, we take another path, choose another thread, keep on weaving the fragile web. Crash through the undergrowth if necessary, to make a new path, emerging torn and tattered, bleeding and punctured with thorns. Because something has happened to challenge the foundations of our lives, and like the Hero or the Heroine we follow the call to adventure, set off on our journey to the underworld, fight the guardian of the threshold, look the dark goddess in the eye as we’re stripped naked before her. If we survive it, we come back into the world transformed, and we bring back a gift.

I guess there are people whose lives don’t unfold like that: who always know where they’re going from the beginning, and who stick to that idea of themselves come what may. I guess there are, though I very rarely meet any of them. The people I tend to meet are more flawed, if you care to judge them in that way; I just judge them as human. Perfection isn’t part of our standard operating procedure; it sure as hell hasn’t ever been part of mine. And I have to say that this isn’t the place to write my autobiography – to talk about or justify my own choices back in the days when I was younger and more frightened: that’s not the point of this post. Those of you who have read my novel The Long Delirious Burning Blue will perhaps understand some of the places I came from, and why I found myself taking what then seemed to be the easier road at a difficult time in my life rather than the path I had wanted to take, and which my schoolfriends always believed I would take. You see, I was supposed to be an activist for Greenpeace, and dreamed of crewing on the Rainbow Warrior. Yes, that was my seventeen-year-old dream. You’ll also, if you’ve read that novel, understand all the ways in which I fought back, took that dark journey, literally learned to fly in spite of a fear of flying. That process of fighting my way back out of the forest – and what was at stake in that fight was my life – began in earnest when I was thirty years old, sitting in a craft cafe somewhere in Wales drinking tea with my mother. On a shelf just above the table where we were sitting was a Devon-ware jug. The inscription on it said: ‘No star is ever lost/ we once have seen./ We always may be/ what we might have been.’ I bought that jug for the princely sum of £8, and it sits on the windowsill by my computer now, as it always has, down all the days since then. It is an inscription for my life, and if I ever should have an epitaph, I would like it to be that.

You see, what I’ve learned from my own choices – the good and the bad – and from those hard dark journeys to the underworld that I’ve made (unfortunately, there’s rarely just one :-) ) is above all compassion, all mixed up with an unending and passionate belief that people can change. It’s why I spend my days shovelling pig-shit in Outer Hebridean gales, writing and producing a magazine which doesn’t make a profit and probably never will, rather than hankering back to the time I spent sitting in a comfortable office earning a comfortable salary and comfortably keeping pace with the Machine. It’s why I’ll now have to look my dearly loved but mortally injured cow in the eye before we kill her for food, rather than buy sanitised steaks from the nearest supermarket. It’s that compassion, and that belief, and the sheer can’t-give-up determination that springs from it, which keeps me going at this grand age of fifty-two, surrounded as I am every day by the bad news, by all of the ways in which we fail, trash the planet, kill the creatures who share it with us, hurt each other … I believe with all my heart and with every drop of passion I still possess that this journey of transformation is what our lives are for. It’s what we are for. To learn. To grow. To get better. We take all that we have gleaned in the processes of our lives – pick up all the threads – the good and the bad, the things of which we’re proud and the things of which we’re not proud – and we weave them into a new and ever more beautiful pattern. And so I believe that I am today and have these past years been a good psychologist because I don’t feel the necessity to judge other people’s choices – how could I, when I’ve made bad ones in my own life? And I believe that now I’m equipped to spend my days as an advocate for the Earth, for the land, for the deep necessity of our connection with it and with each other precisely because I’ve seen at first hand the Machine in operation. I’ve lived in it. I’ve been a part of it, and I’ve come out swinging. I know exactly what I’m fighting, and I’m fighting it now with every ounce of my strength.

I never worked for Greenpeace, but I’m a Rainbow Warrior now.